i.have.large.gluteal

2011-12-17T09:08:00.002+08:00

hey boogie-boogie, i'm 21 alreadyyy.
must be all matured. ehem ehem.

dum-dooey-doo@ 09.10am

2011-11-05T21:53:00.005+08:00

i just felt like blogging so hey blog, im here.
its always nice to have someone to share your thoughts/rants/happiness and sorrows with. (:

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.45pm

2011-09-22T14:22:00.002+08:00

everytime i feel im lonely or i need some time alone,
this is all the space i can get.
sometimes i wish im more understanding, loving and caring person.
call me weird but i eat when im sad,
and i drown myself to sleep when i dont wanna think.
and maybe to some, its ridiculous, cause most people cannot eat when they are sad,
and they cant sleep when they think too much or miss someone too much.
thats the norm. but im not the norm.

people never get satisfied with themselves.
either they want big eyes when they have small ones,
or small eyes when they got big ones,
people who are fat, wants to be slim
and slim ones, sometimes wants to get fat.
basically everyone in this world cant stop complaining about themselves.
even i do, trust me, everytimeee.

and now i think im blabbering.
ive gotta learn to love myself and so i can love others better.

dum-dooey-doo@ 02.59pm

2011-09-04T09:00:00.003+08:00

and all i wanted was to jalan raya, spend more time with family and not having my feelings cheated when i was already hoping that we did jalan raya.
and all i can see when i ridee back from school with lots of hopeee, are happy people with baju kurung, going jalan raya. and when i get back home, no jalan raya for me. hopes craseheddd, BAYMMMN!
call me sensitive, but thats just me. feeling negelected and when this happens, i feel moreee like a wasted child.

and ouh, selamat hari raya to all!!!! happy happy jalan raya with beloved family and friends.

dum-dooey-doo@ 09.01am

2011-09-04T08:37:00.003+08:00

im never good enough for mummy. never will.
the most rudest of them all, and thats what she says.
just not a good child for her.
ill try to remain quiet, if i got nothing good to say.
i hate myself for this.

dum-dooey-doo@ 08.40am

2011-08-18T23:33:00.002+08:00

Living lives full of expectations. I do, Do you?

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.34pm

2011-08-03T12:47:00.004+08:00

Happy Fasting People. (:

Ya Allah,
Sesungguhnya hamba mu ini inginkan pekerjaan yang baru.
Pekerjaan yang sesuai buat diri ini.
Dan sesungguhnya hamba mu ini kurang imannya dan selalu dalam keadaan kemaksiatan,
maka kau permudahkanlah perjalananku dalam bulan mu yang mulia ini.

Amin.

dum-dooey-doo@ 1250hrs

2011-07-21T22:27:00.003+08:00

sometimes, a different crowd is what you need to make you happy.
i am STRONG.

dum-dooey-doo@ 10.28pm

2011-07-16T17:06:00.002+08:00

she taught me the meaning of happinnes.
she taught me how to give in.
she taught me how to share.
she taught me something ive never done before.
she taught me how to care.
she taught me how to be strong.
she taught me how not to be selfish.
she taught me how to appreciate
and most important of all,
she taught me how to love. thank you.

dum-dooey-doo@ 05.13pm

2011-06-30T19:06:00.003+08:00

1 more day to get away from all the stresss.
i cant wait! tooo exicited.

dear mr sand and beach,
be nice to mee .
thank you.

lots of love, XOXOs,
Ili

dum-dooey-doo@ 07.09pm

2011-05-26T18:29:00.001+08:00

Dont be sad. and should not even care.

dum-dooey-doo@ 0630pm

2011-05-22T07:47:00.004+08:00

"yesterdays yesterday was CRAZYYYY."

this music video is sooo cutteeee!!!! the monkeys really makes me wanna danceee.!

lets side track a bit and some updates, i think its really weird that someone would steal the present.!! urgh. or maybe its just me whos forgetful and becoming clusy as days gone by. i feel like a useless friend :(

and to you, i shall be lazy today. im not gonna text you cause i want you to text me first *winks. and that shows i crossed your mind. (:

dum-dooey-doo@ 0800am

2011-04-30T01:00:00.003+08:00

"my instincts proves me right."

the worst thing that someone can ever do, is to betray.
the worst thing someone could ever do to you, is to be betrayed.

i try my best not to be judgemental but what happen just proves it all right. youre wrong to have done that. and even if i was neutral, i'd still take side for the one whom i think is right, and definitely not you, because you betrayed. but that dosent mean i'll hate you for that, cause HATE is a strong word.

i didn't know adults can still facing this kind of problem. its really ridiculous for me. now, it scares me to grow up.! :(

i shall learn from mistakes and keep my thoughts to myself now, cause i dont want to influence others on making a wrong impression of the another party. its just not nice.
somehow i feel that i played a part for this confusion. and to the one whom is right, im sorry.

dum-dooey-doo@ 01.10am

2011-04-23T07:32:00.003+08:00

"you make me real shy."

standing there clueless, and i really dont know what to do.
but funny moments that i will remember and it is, 'what an experience' as quoted by you.

so anyways, i hate it when my ears starts turning red when i get shy.
and how my face blushes like a red apple when i get teased. grrr.
its such a disadvantage cause it tells all to the other individual/s. CRAP.

dum-dooey-doo@ 7.37am

2011-04-19T22:45:00.003+08:00

"i just need some acceptance."

the feeling just sucks when you feel ure not accepted. arghhhh... but what hurts more is that when thats all an assumption and you dont really know if its true or not..
think positive ili, gotta think positive..
now smile (:

ps: i just think that sometimess ure so childish and be all secretive, and always having ear to ear talk. disgust me.

dum-dooey-doo@ 1048pm

2011-04-13T08:48:00.004+08:00

YOU REALLY MAKE ME HAPPY.
its like creating and getting stuck into my own mess.

but like what you always say, just enjoy the moment and do whatever that makes you happy (:

dum-dooey-doo@ 850am

2011-04-03T22:50:00.007+08:00

"lets live for tomorrow"

Happy 55th Daddyy!! iloveyousomuch(ILYSM).

it feels like its darn long since i had pictures posted in my posts(:

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.00pm

2011-03-26T09:15:00.004+08:00

"the reason i smile everyday is because of you."

hello, heyboogie-boogie. i hope youre doing fineee alrightt(:
i finally removed my P plate, so now im an official riderrr. yayneessss.

its going to be exams soon. next thursday and i took leave from monday.
such a waste right to spare my leaves for exams, but nehmind. i'm goona stay positive and study as much as i cannn.!

i'm somewhat glad that this friend of mine came to my life.
days are not so boring afterall(:
at least im not so bored since my good friends always backed me out on the plans to meet up each other.
sometimes i miss them too much, but im sooo egoistic that i wont be the one giving way to initiate on making new plans. because, "buat ape terhegeh2 if people taknak jumpe kau kan."
so yeah.

i really miss shikin so much.. i want to share like we used to on whatever that has been happening to my life right now but she seems so busy with her relationship that she always backed me out and will only find me if she got problems. and that feeling sucks. like seriously.! urghhh.
oh wells, life moves on right?

so yeah, ill update on you whenever i can.! XOXOs.

dum-dooey-doo@ 09.25am

2011-03-06T18:22:00.005+08:00

"it been so longggg."

above suggests it all.
i dont know why but i just feel like blogging today.
all i wanna do is to rant.
my life is so boring, nothing really interesting happening.
i want a camera so i can capture moments of my life. a DSLR specifically. but noo cash right now, so i guess, i'll just have to pester daddy to buy me one. heheh.

since ive been missing from blogger from a long time, i want to write it all up. firstly im moving house from the one that ive lived for nearly 18 years of my life. very saddening, you know. i cried when i first found out daddys selling the house. the sense of belonging is so powerful and overwhelming.

secondly, i feel that ive lost touch with all my friends. even asses, some of them are really damn busy with live. but on the lighter note, we manage to keep the group small and still meet up for movies, lunches and dinner, just like yesterday. some other friends of mine are just to busy with working life and just so hard to meet up.

but the shitheads(cousins) are really filling up my life. and i am glad. phuket this july and i really hope it works out this time,. i guess we just have to buy the air tickets fast so no one backs out. hahah.. but i trust this two shitheads and stay on with the plan.! july is like the only leave i took NOT for EXAMS. so i need some enjoyment.

ive been doing lots of thinking these days and its cramping up my face, thats how i feel. my head feels like it shrink and my brain is gonna pop up any time sonner.

i dont know if i did the wrong move to reply in that kind of way. it just had the game stop moving along. but deep down, i know its something wrong but with a wild young heart, i dont mind giving a try but im still afraid. i just got this really strong feeling of giving it a try. or maybe i feel this way since its been long since i got the attention. but i really hope its was all not a joke, in response to your reply. cause you really got me there.

i should convince myself to stop thinking of it and be happy and move along. forget about it and act as if everything is all fine. i hope it wouldnt be akward. its hard sometimes for me to express things out cause i still dont understand myself somehow. im a muddleheaded girl. ok, moving on.

school has been fine. labs are interestingly hard and pain in the ass sometimes. last week was all packed and hectic. i pray that everything is gonna be alright(: amin.

i shall end of now. felt good/relieved to rant and share things out. ahhhhhh~

lets not hope this is the last. and i will continue blogging. so heyboogie-boggie, i wanna appologize that its been so long since i filled you up.
its 2011 already. sorry, i felt you for so long. im turning 21 already, and i will try my very best to fill you up with last bits of my 20th life. thak you for being there for me.

i wanna try shopping aloneee tomorrow.! spend time with myself more. yayness.

dum-dooey-doo@ 1849hrs

2010-12-19T08:45:00.002+08:00

sometimes, a simple frog game can make the bonding going.

and like seriously, i got the fetish for curly whirly sexy haired guys. YUM.!

i swear i miss that friend alot. but everytime we are about to meet, things get in the way. ouh wells.

dum-dooey-doo@ 08.48am

2010-12-11T16:23:00.003+08:00

"OH myy GOSSHHHH. "

i fall for someone so very easily :)
you're such a sweet thang.
and i can't forget the other night.
but i guess it won't be for long till we meet again. but i will still be hoping that you still want to meet me too.

dum-dooey-doo@ 4.26pm

2010-11-28T06:35:00.003+08:00

"jealousy sometimes can be the best remedy, not"

2 more days and i am so excited. the big day when i turn 20-teen. maybe to some its just any ordinary day but its really a big day for me. i never fail to have butterflies in my tummy whenever the sun starts rising. spending time with loved ones is a real must. enjoy all the love that you can get in that single day. see, its not just SOME day, its THE day.

surprises on birthdays are just awesomeeee. i love surprises, ah yess, kan bunga mestilah i like being surprised. hesss. just like how i like planning on how to surprise people. i think its a satisfaction when you get to surprise people and they go awe and starts crying and all:):)

and for me usually, maybe because i'm am brilliant or maybe because i'm am to excited for my birthday that i can sense and think of all the possibilities that how my surprises will coming. hahah, and that's bad cause prediction before hand equals to no funn..! hahah.

i'm still waiting for someone to give me a real surprise that i never ever thought of and make me go crying. okay, maybe just not on my birthday!

oh wait, i know i got a shocking one before, filled with ballons and a small gift:) but i would love to have moreee.

this is just ranting, not asking or begging for people to surprise me. so in general, i'm a person whom loves surprises be it happening to me or others. PERIOD.

dum-dooey-doo@06.49am

2010-11-04T00:43:00.004+08:00

"so the journey continues."

hey yaw. it's been a longgg time. hahah:)
so many thing has/had, happenned/happening.
school, work, dooey dee. it's been a tough ride.

this is very random but i think i MUST post this up.
i love bruno mars cause he made me all smiling to myself just listening to the song, just the way you are:)
i'm very soft-hearted too.
i'm still a 'bunga' what.

oh, BIG GIRL, you are beautiful.! -mika

and jesse eisenburg made me have daydreams all over again:)
like i always say, CURLY WHIRLY SEXY. yummy.

dum-dooey-doo@ 12.50am

2010-08-20T09:54:00.006+08:00

"sometimes, we forgot that its just a phonecall away."

i feel so drained after thinking too much.
its been so long that i felt this way.
and at time like this, i miss this woman too much.

dum-dooey-doo@ 10.27am

2010-08-14T00:42:00.003+08:00

Stop it with the sulky face. at least not in front of the dinner table. urgh...
blurted and relieved.
had impromptu supper for durians. not so yummy. oh pleasseee, no heatiness tomorrow:)
does durian contain lots of fats?? whoops, i'm feeling guilty. haha.

dum-dooey-doo@ 12.43am

2010-08-13T13:18:00.002+08:00

Hari ketiga:) i'm thankful for everything, bersyukur.
Girlfriends has been making my day awesome although its just exchanging of mails. love you girls.

dum-dooey-doo@ 1.20pm

2010-08-01T14:34:00.001+08:00

i don't want to have ANYTHING to do with you, ANYMORE. So, Leave. and yes, i'm ego.

dum-dooey-doo@ 2.36pm

2010-07-25T00:33:00.002+08:00

"Annoying orange is the boomz, he CRACKS me up everytime!!"

dum-dooey-doo@ 12.33am

2010-07-23T11:23:00.002+08:00

"nobody reads this thing anyway."

dooey-dee has been doing great deeds to me. i'm so happy to have you.

i'm so thankful that i have 2 lovely nephews and 1 sweet niece whom keeps me smiling and laughing all the time. but of course, that was a lie. not ALL the time. it definetly ticks me off when they started crying or shouting early in the morning at 7am when i am struggling to have my precious sleep. urghh.. annoying.

i NEED a job cause i WANT the cash!!!

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.32am

2010-07-11T20:12:00.005+08:00

"it will soon come across"

firstly: i don't understand you neither do i understand myself. grrrr.

secondly: i need a job, pronto!!

thirdly: i am always afraid for being regarded as not treasuring a friendship, and i think i am getting closer to that ideology even without me realising it. and i feel so bad:(

Lastly: being a potato couch isn't helping me to loooseee weight. duh!! i hate it how media influence us all (pretty,sexy girlss)

dum-dooey-doo@ 8.19pm

2010-07-07T14:36:00.001+08:00

i've gotten dooey dee:) next week! next week!!
will try my best and make this active agaiinn. hahha.

dum-dooey-doo@ 2.37pm

2010-06-24T14:00:00.003+08:00

good old days.
being a listening ear can make you appreciate your life better. some people are not as fortunate as yourself. so ili, be happy with the life you've got. cherish and treasure.

me out of job and it gets really boring at home sometimes. urgh.
and i'm still waiting for a reply from sanofi aventis which i really really hope for so badly.
wish me lucks.

dum-dooey-doo@ 2.28pm

2010-06-06T07:38:00.002+08:00

"i could love you if i dared."

i've always wanted to do some soul searching. i still don't know much about myself and it suck.
the first love came back into a moment in my life and i was excited but yet scared.
i guess its all over.

it disgust me when you just can't figure out what people are trying to say!! you just have to sit there and bare with all the nonsense.
and i like to share that all human race out there should at least have the respect towards others.

my post are all like random items that flashes through my mind. like seriously i've got idea what to blog nowadays. hahha. going ~~clubbing~~ crabbing in a few minutes time:):)

dum-dooey-doo@ 7.46am

2010-05-21T23:28:00.003+08:00

"i could sense something was wrong.TOTALLY"

finally, done. three years was fast and blast. met really good friends which i can never forget.. friends whom helped me through thick and thin and that is wanwan and afath:):) thanks alot babes. without you two, i don't think i can ever get a cert, maybe i'm still going on to 4.1. Thanks alot, you two.

Poly life has certainly been a great adventure for me.!

on side track, its seems soo hard to please everybody and i am trying and learning hard on how to do so. i just wish things were much simpler. i was never good at it. GAWD, i felt so bad.

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.42pm

2010-05-09T11:03:00.002+08:00

"ME LOVE MUM:)"

It's been soo long since i've blogged.
kindda miss this place.
been veryvery tired these few days. work, work and more work.!

is it true that people would change once they get something that they want?
people rant and wished for all the good things.
in actual fact, some do happen but most of the time it dosen't. so why do people still hang around with their wishes and hopes? i guess there must a certain reason to hold on to.
people get influenced so easily. and as far as i hate it, i'm also get influenced easily.
with much concerned, i'm in need of a freaking life.!

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.09am

2010-04-02T08:09:00.004+08:00

"i guess your worst nightmare has arrived."

Bangkok was awesome although i've already been back for a few weeks already! worth the go cause no experience of the riot except bumping into the lorries/van filled with red shirt. haha. i want to go on another holiday.! BALI, BALI!!

been really busy with work which i'll be quitting soon enough. and ouh, now i know how to fish! hahah. i mean the preparation stage before fishing lah. all thanks to the fishing session i had with cousins:):) and reminiscing the past we had was just niceee. we used to play all sort of PRETEND games together. hahahha. what a childhood life i must say. now, thinking of the future makes me sick.

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.04am

2010-03-21T00:36:00.003+08:00

GOODBYE SINGAPORE and HELLO BANGKOK.
over to see THAKSIN:)
yesterday was alice in wonderland for the second time.BONKERS!
ASSes made my made, as per usual. haha.

dum-dooey-doo@ 12.37am

2010-03-18T16:58:00.004+08:00

"let's just say we can never forget our first love can we?"

alhamdulillah everything is going very smoothly for me.
everything i ever wanted has been achieved.
i'm so happy about my results which i cannot believe my eyes when i saw it.!baikk:)
like mummy says, following your instincts, put in the best effort and the results obtained will be satisfactory.
and as for today, 18/03/2010 i am a very happy person and i can't stop smiling to myself. i am glad to have met you today, even if it wasn't for some chit chat session. LET'S HIT THE ROADS BABEH:)

dum-dooey-doo@ 5.07pm

2010-03-08T09:35:00.003+08:00

"believe in 6 impossible things before breakfast"

let's count it down.

one: Potions that can make you smaller

two: Cakes that can make you grow larger

three: Animals can talk.

four: Cats can disappear

five: There is a wonderland

six: Jabberwocky will be sleighed.

as much as alice believe in it, i ever believed in number three and four:) alice in wonderland was the bomb!! 3D lagik, fuh, AWESOME.

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.44pm

2010-03-07T01:20:00.004+08:00

"THE WORLD IS BEGINNING TO END."

i just started working:) i need the cash.
although its not related to what i intend to do. like i said, i NEED THE CASH. see the word need. not want. there is a huge difference.
i'm glad i have firdaus around me to teach all the stuff that i don't know.
and i should not complain but i just want to say that i hate those really really rude people. ANNOYING.
other than that, everything is okay.

i wasn't sure if what i did the other day was rational.
but i know that i just need to be alone and THINK DEEP.
i will know that there's is always people around me that supports ME.

dum-dooey-doo@1.38am

2010-03-02T20:09:00.004+08:00

i don't get you!!

why must your thinking be different from norms of the way people of the same category as you should be thinking!! the issue is always the same, gawd.

dum-dooey-doo@ 8.11pm

2010-02-19T01:09:00.005+08:00

"you SUCK."

had a short lepak session which was nice i must say.

it's been a long time since we chatted. like really sit down to chat. haha.

i guess there's always two sides to a story.

and ouh gawd, i hope the day doesn't comes.

it makes me feel so sick.

most of the time i felt happy, but a question ticks my brain to stimulate.

do i really feel the loss? haha.

dum-dooey-doo@ 1.15am

2010-02-13T08:11:00.006+08:00

"Dare To Dream"

i ain't got no schooling anymore.!

time zooms past super duper fast. it's been three years?! can you imagine? i've gained so much. i should say, temasek polythecnic has been a great help:)

my three years would be dull if it were'nt for the friends i made along the way. each and everyone of them has been a total joy to me.

but the two amazing people that i can't thank enough is FATHINAH and WAN YU. i swear if it wasn't for them, i'll be in deep shit. yeah. i appreciate every single bit of what you two has done for me.! thank you so so much. you've guided me through my path, and without the both of you, it will just be white lights but black hope. The both of you are just awesome:) i love you both. i thank you very much!

and to the sexy lady in pink. i hope your leg becomes sexy again. i miss you soo much.these two has coloured my life. thank you.

dum-dooey-doo@ 8.23am

2010-02-05T22:38:00.005+08:00

SELAMAT HARI JADI YANG KE 20, SHIKIN!

a simple surprise but it managed to get your tears rolling.

i hope i've fulfilled your wish on how you wanted to share your day as mentioned. haha. it was a greattt success:)

thanks azman for the great help..

and i love you sooo much lah chicken.!

nothing beats COW and CHICKEN right?!

may you be my best buddy for eternity and beyond.

and let me tell you, the memories we've shared is pure joyness to me and i thank you for that! see, i didn't forget your special day okayy:)

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.49pm

2010-01-31T21:43:00.007+08:00

"you disgust me."

yesterday was afifah's 20th and today is nurul's 22nd.

so happy birthday you twoo:):) continue to rock my world.!

on friday, it was just so random that i kissed a random stranger on her cheeks cause she needs to collect 20 of either hugs, kisses or present. i thought a hug might be nice but a kiss is should be more meaningful:) buying present is too costly and time consuming. hahha. she got an AWESOME celebration indeed.

looks like everybody is so busy with MP. and i can't get myself to focus on the word document for even 10 minutes. gawd. this sucks. i got so many discussions, conclusion, problems and recommendation, future plans and 5 weekly summary exactly to be completed for my log book. damn!

hello FEBRUARY, goodbye JANUARY. random.

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.52pm

2010-01-24T22:10:00.004+08:00

"if only, i was like any other girls."

the day i came back was heartwarming:)

i got awesome family members, i must say.

thank you qaiser for cookies you baked for me. thank you affifah and fazlyn for taking off just to fetch me from the airport. to umaira for sacrificing some hang out time with friends to meet me at home. my uncle for changing his shift. my other uncle for not driving his teksi just to welcome me home. and to you, for the embarrassing surprise. thank you everyone, seriously.

yesterday was another happy day. lunch with cousins and dinner with asses. and as usual, i'd be the bulk of the joke. grrrr.

and today, i spend quality time with the love ones. what more can i ask for. it feels sooo good to be home:)

for now, i shall dedicate this post below to NORHARYANI BINTE ZAINOL aka BHAI/NYAH.

thank you soo much for literally being by my side for the last 5 months!

i am sorry for the times when i get a tiny winny bit irritating.

****ing anyhow and blaming the makcik's roof for making such noises. making fuss of who should meet uncle boiler. singing you to beautiful sounds until you sleep. irritate you by dancing to idola cilik theme song. forcing you to do all the talking, most of the time. making you the subject of joke whenever i'm with chandru. always aksing you to take for me this and that and this. making you pick up the dead lizard and alive leech. making you buy you favourite food yourself just because i was plain lazy. making you go up of the van first just because i cannot squeeze between the small spaces. making your pimple flatten when we play knock-the-forehead-when-you-see-that-car game. not living up to my promise when you said THAT is for a week only. making you wake up first since you always bathe sooo slow. eating up all the super rings and crackers all by myself! haha.

i swear for this whole five months, you've known alot about my lifestyle yeah. OMG, we can we soul mates. errrm, maybe not. hahhaha. and as quoted by my mum, "you should be thankful that you went with someone you can get along. sometimes, when people live together, things can get difficult."

and true enough, i was thankful. but no matter how difficult things get, we will definitely make a joke out of it. terima kasih banyak banyak bhai because you made my journey adventurous:):)

dum-dooey-doo@ 10.31pm

2010-01-22T07:40:00.002+08:00

"speechless."

i'm soo happy that i will be leaving for singapore in a few hours time:) but am sad to leave here too.
i swear i'll miss ranbaxy. i've made awesome friends along the way. thank you all.! everything went so perfectly fine yesterday.niceee.

i feel so touched knowing people are really excited for me to go home and also planning to fetch me at the airport. it means that i am a PART of thier life.! i love you all. i can't wait for my briyani. mummy's whipping it up just for me. awwww:)

dum-dooey-doo@ 7.47am

2010-01-19T00:07:00.008+08:00

"3 more nights."

i keep questioning why? why? and more whys?

why must things get so difficult although it seems like not. i got this weird attitude that even i myself cannot understand. why why now? why not later. just when things started to get interesting it broke off with a confession.

grrr. its so irritating when i force myself to accept. but the answer is always the same, everytime!

i'm fucked.!

dum-dooey-doo@ 12.11am

2010-01-16T01:23:00.002+08:00

"i want you hold you tight so badly."

heading for perak ~~tomorrow~~ today:)

dum-dooey-doo@ 1.31am

2010-01-09T22:31:00.003+08:00

"at the border."

how should i describe my train ride to padang besar (PERLIS)?

very interesting but fucked up in the earlier part. and i lied. OMG! haha.

i saw the forest.

i saw the padi fields.

i saw the sun sun shining bright.

i saw flyovers.

i saw beautiful kids waving.

i saw awesome boys having fun along the stream.

i saw nicee mountains.

i saw motors and cars stopped as tarin passes.

and when i get off the train,

i spoke to myself, "what a journey."

even without anyone asking me, "why am i smiling."

hahha.

dum-dooey-doo@ 10.44pm

2010-01-06T20:52:00.001+08:00

"ouh, damn she's hot/"

couldn't be more happier.

dum-dooey-doo@ 8.55pm

2010-01-01T21:12:00.003+08:00

"let's paint that wall again."

happy 2010(:
i've been wishing random people a happy new year. even the guy who sells kway teow.
see, how excited i am for the new year. so people, let's kick some ass!
plan ahead and be happy for the future. live YOUR life.

how did i started my day?
i sang to the flowers and they seem to be dancing happily to my voice. nicee.

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.17pm

2009-12-30T19:42:00.003+08:00

"hi.bye."

work is getting more fun everyday with best friend around(:

it's very strange how i act as if i have a ~~dick~~ everytime i come in contact with sildenafil citrate tablets.! haha. and and, its really freakky that the API is in my body right now.! i might just get horny due to overdose, but i didn't.

PS: i get adrenaline rush easily:) flushing red.

dum-dooey-doo@ 7.49pm

2009-12-24T23:47:00.002+08:00

just when i was going hardworking and work on my logbook,

the ink runs out! HAHHA.

and my supervisor invited us to his house tomorrow. niceee:)

penang visit for the fourth time. at least i think its going to be the second last time. the last would be to the airport where i'll fly back homee in 4 weeks time:)

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.50pm

2009-12-17T22:14:00.002+08:00

"don't change the nature. but change is nature."

i found a new best friend at work.

chandru is his name.

i had fun laughing non-stop for the whole 3 hours with him yesterday .

and not forgetting the bitching session in between as well.

its funny how we started talking.

it all started from a funny incident.

so one fine day, this chandru guy with lots of confidence walks across pushes the door infront of him while convincingly looking at me thinking that he confirm will open get to push the door (its airlock by the way, so not easy to push open that door). But the freaking door didn't open and so he hurt his hands. i was really damn shocked cause he looks so confident that the door will open with his hard push.

and start from that day onwards, we started talking. before that faithful day, i named him S.LOVE. why the S? cause he looks just like one of my friend named saravanan. random, i know.

and ouh, not forgetting the sweet way he uses to stand up for his right explaining the incidence, "yalah, i was looking at a pretty girl (which is me, ehem ehem) and that's why the door never open." hahha. and of course he spoke in malay lah.. cool huh.

it's interesting how some malaysian indian speaks nice malay. even better then me. and one best example is mahen. if you were to talk to him on the phone in malay, i guess that you will also not guess that he's an indian. haha. AWESOME malay speaking indians is a easier way of communication.

tomorrow is a public holiday for people in kedah!

and yes, selamat tahun baru islam.

saya berazam nak jadi orang yang lebih berguna:)

dum-dooey-doo@ 10.45pm

2009-12-15T21:35:00.006+08:00

"i get excited easily."

i got a blister on my thumb.

this is because i've been writing alot. gawd.

this log book thing suck. grrr.

i'm already missing home. family and friends.

i've been thinking alot.

i really don't know what to do after i graduate(hopefully.)

should i study? work? or both at the same time..

i pressurising you know.

i wish i've started thinking earlier. at least i won't feel so stuck.

on a lighter note, my nights is filled with wonderful conversation.

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.45pm

2009-12-03T20:58:00.002+08:00

"i want to leave tracks."

you'll be fine. i know u're strong. XOXO.

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.12pm

2009-11-30T21:27:00.000+08:00

9-teen:)

i should really start behaving like a matured YOUNG adult.

me think me got nicee nostrils. haha. what a beauty.

dum-dooey-doo@ 09.28

2009-11-24T20:33:00.002+08:00

"it feels like four years back. infatuations."

somethings are meant for you to share with yourself.

dum-dooey-doo@

2009-11-19T11:26:00.004+08:00

"no ring ring."

work is soo fun.

cheecky us. yestersay, we stood in the material entry room which has a tinted windows and we go banging on the door when people walk pass. HILARIOUS sia. the expression on the people faces are soo funny, CLASSIC. hahahha.

today, we did the same thing again but this time, at the gowning area with no tinted glasses but the lights were switched off and it was dark, we assumed.

but, this day was when we got caught red handed. NATHAN was our victim and he is the only sole whom dares to look into the window to check out, whos the idiots whom was playing tricks on him.

and so he saw us.. hahhaha!

and like how the people say here, "KANTOI".

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.32am

2009-11-13T21:59:00.006+08:00

"a phone friend"

highlight of this week.

FINALLY got chased by the freaking dog!! grrr. stupid ass.
which means, taking a longer route in the morning just to buy breakfast.

andand, out of my stupid-ness, me and yani got locked out of the house.
i accidentally felt the key in the cupboard, locked the house and go out to buy dinner. hahha.

dum-dooey-doo@ 10.08pm

2009-11-08T20:20:00.004+08:00

"i'm hearing a LOUD silence. BAM!"

my weekends are spend well. here we are again, going deep into the water. WATERFALL at bukit hijau. and this time, we went in a crowd. the QC department invited us to their outing. and we accepted the offer. so that was saturday.

on sunday, we went to chandi. a place with lots of treasure; architecture. it was known to be a hindu buddhist kingdom also known as 'katahanagara'. historic, i know! and since its a buddist kingdom the architecture main comprises of the temples that were build during that time. it was a sight. it's really awesome that they found really old but interesting stuff over there after digging it up!

and the sunday was completed with scrumptious meal to pizza hut. wani brought us there since she won some voucher:) food here in kedah is gooood. really good. kampong style dishes just makes me drool. hahha. one significant dish that has to be tried out is the air asam. haha. and no, it's not a drink. niccee. but i think i'm sick of eating out just because i miss mummy's cooking.! i want mummy's briyani when i'm back home. so kakak, if you're reading this, go tell ibu. hurry.

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.59pm

2009-11-06T21:01:00.004+08:00

"what were they thinking?"

i'm so excited for tomorrow. regardless of all the awkward moments that i'm going to have. and i hope not!

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.19pm

2009-11-01T14:32:00.006+08:00

if only kedah shows THIS IS IT movie, i wouldn't have to be sitting here, waiting for the gawd damn illegal movie watching online thang to end buffering and start loading!

should have gone penang this week instead. they showing it NOW!! wasted bitch.

i want to watch it, badly. please let the load hurry!

dum-dooey-doo@ 2.35pm

2009-11-01T11:05:00.004+08:00

"when the same word is repeated, it losses the significance; miss"

i was just thinking what are the loved ones doing back in Singapore when i bore myself here!

delivery services is so convenient! and i'm loving it. i just had a BIG breakfast early in the morning. but yesterday tom yam maggi is not making my tummy feel good. grrr

yesterday online discussion was scarry. my liason officer asked so many questions and some of them are like impossible for me to answer spontaneously. so, there i was, goggling the answers. cheating? NO. referring, since i was UNSURE.

wanyu was also doing the same thing. speaking of her, it's been a long time since, we exchanged emails. i miss her and afath sia. feels so weird that i'm doing school work without them. usually, afath is our google books. full of information. she's amazing. thanks afath:)

internet's back at home. yayness.

ps: it feels that i've known you for years now.

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.28am

2009-10-29T21:25:00.005+08:00

"I've changed my wait."

something so random yet funny.

kumar: eh, that time you both went to the mall isit?
me and yani: errm, nop.
kumar: i thought i saw you both.
me: wah, you mean got someone whom look like us.
kumar: yeah

and at an instance, both girls replied
yani: wow, they must be cute
me: they must be pretty.

kumar: chech, go home lah.

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.39pm

2009-10-25T21:06:00.006+08:00

"you got me."

fantastic! the weekend getaway to penang was just awesome shit.
the place is much more interesting as compared to kedah. at least there's night life. haha.
so, me went to the BUTTERFLY PARK!! yayness. there's much more species here as compared to the ones in singapore. and i was really excited to see sooooo many of them around me! adrenaline rush sia.
we visited the some temples, went to the botanical garden(which has lots of monkeys just loitering around), bukit bendera/penang hill (took a train up and see the magnificent view around 2,750 foot above the see level. go on a canopy walk too.) and lastly a trip to P.Ramlee's(true legend) place of birth.

it's was a true adventure, in just two days. i love penang. and i don't mind to pay a visit here again.

times are bad. no more internet connection back at home. HACKMAN has secured itself. damn.! the only alternative, cafe with wireless connection. luckily its ONLY 5 minutes walk away.but walking home at 11pm accompanied by the not-so-bright street lights which is only 50-100m apart from one another is not soo fun!grrrr.

dum-dooey-doo@ 10.21pm

2009-10-15T21:33:00.000+08:00

"when there's akon, there will always be usher. i like awik still"

in regards to my older post, see i know it i'm going to see a rainbow. and literally, i saw a rainbow today. a very magnificent one. just BEAUTIFUL.

and to fifi, all the best in hanoi yeah. i'm sure you will do just fine. have fun!!

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.33pm

2009-10-12T22:46:00.006+08:00

Do not laugh!! i love mum. HAPPY BIRTHDAY:)

send this over to mum. and i feel so shy recording! so weird. but i hope she likes it. when you love that person too much, you don't even mind doing the stupidest things just to make them smile.

and yesterday was darling's birthday too. sorry i can't be there to celebrate it with you.! but i hope and/or know that you had an AWESOME day.

dum-dooey-doo@ 10.48pm

2009-10-11T20:53:00.005+08:00

"LOVE is just a fantasy"

nenek has been transfered normal ward, alhamdulillah:)

i miss the ASSes. short webcam session when they were having raya outing (without me that is, grrrr).

shopping, karaoke, jenga, chilling at starbucks and good food during weekends. and its still sad to say that teksi sucks.! we did most of the visit to shops and buy food by foot.

i get to sing for lutfi today. his favourite song. hurrah. he gave me a flying kiss when we ended the conversation. so big already! bah. i can't wait to see him in JANUARY.

tommorow is mummy birthday. i got a big big suprise for her. thanks to yani too for her help.

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.14pm

2009-10-09T22:50:00.002+08:00

"and i just cannot read between the lines"

why did nobody inform me?
yes i know, they don't want me to worry but i should have the right to know.
i pray really hard that nenek's gonna be fine. AMIN.
my heart is in pain, i miss her, badly.

dum-dooey-doo@ 10.53pm

2009-10-06T21:07:00.006+08:00

"tired of keeping shut.let's get loud!"

weekends was great.AWESOME. first time to get a dip in the river:):) get close to the nature uh..cheychey.

and ouh, there's a PBF (penang butterfly farm.) in penang. must go, must go. SOON.

just when i was having fun bowling, got a beep from sister, and she says she misses me. awww. touched my heart, seriously and i almost wanted to cry. thinking back, that i miss her too and lutfi and fana and uqasyah and my folks. not forgetting the ASSes.

movie theatre here, is ookaayy. but seats are hard. cold hard flooring (not carpeted). but the pricing wise, i like! cheap,cheap,cheap.

to me it's a must to watch malay movie when you're in malaysia right?! so we watched jin notti. ideas concept wise is really cool.. how they develop the characters with humour.

there will be an A&W outlet opening soon in the new tesco building. what i've been waiting for. there isn't any before this. so, YESSAAH. curly fries, root beer float an ice-cream waffle. i want it all!!!

it's been raining, almost everyday. monsoon season.

when there's rain, i'm sure there will be a rainbow after that.

i will get to see the rainbow. i know and i must.

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.28pm

2009-10-02T00:46:00.003+08:00

"stupid dogs."

i hate the dogs around this area!
i barks at me and yani every morning.. fuck shit sia.
i always had to loook so unglam leaving the house gate.
thank gawd yani is by my side:):)

things have been rather fine.
but the socializing part, people are getting WAY TOOO FRIENDLY.
scarry at times. and come to think of it, maybe the ones who look trustable are the ones who are not.

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.59pm

2009-09-27T08:37:00.002+08:00

"when that men screams. olala."

i was dead happy that i get to meet uqasyah.

at least for 2 days.

and today, i'm going back to kedah:(

to see how a woman gave birth is not easy.

my sister was in pain when me and mum went to visit her on saturday. she was supossed to be in ward at around 2am on friday after she has incuded but she was pu to normal ward first.

at around 2pm when she really felt the contraction (after gulping down raw kampong egg with honey which is some ancient advice for smooth birth), we called upon the nurse and she says, that my sister has to wait, cause the labour ward is fully occupied, no beds available yet!

i was OMG, wah, singaporean are active people! haha.

baby boom per. haha. soon after the doctor came just to find that her amniotic sac has burst (water bag lah.) so then she was brought down to the delivery ward which she has to WAIT that is. haha. and soon after, around 2hrs plus, baby was born! yay.

i admire her courage alot, she didn't even have the epidural anesthesia which is amazing, i think:):) fierce oi.

she even pushed when it was only 6cm. i guess she must be in great pain that is.

i'm glad that she is fine now.. and i still can't believe shes a MOTHER! but i'm happy for her.

i'll only get to see him the next 4 months time. meanwhile, i'll still get to webcam and see him grows. same goes for lutfi and lutfana.

i hope they still know that they have an aunty ili.

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.25am

2009-09-25T09:35:00.009+08:00

"Hate is more lasting than dislike."
-Adolf Hitler

Duane Ho poker face got me smiling.
i want it to be playing in my ipod.!!
it's way better than lady gaga's(daughtry version is also better!)

now, he got me thinking that i SHOULD go for piano lesson. grrr.

anyways, my sister is already experiencing contraction!
she's in kandang kerbau hospital already.
i bet uqasyah will be born today.
i can't wait.
looks like everythings has been planned wonderfully for me.
i thank god for that.

and FAIZ, thank you for the present.
it will certainly come in handy for me when i'm in kedah.
a COOKER! awesome.

the movie inglouriuos basterds is a must watch.
cruelity of hitler. but he is a great fuhrer i must say.

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.41am

2009-09-24T00:07:00.004+08:00

it takes two hands to clap.

it takes a minute to spare and make me happy.

i AM dissapointed.

dum-dooey-doo@ 12.08pm

2009-09-20T07:48:00.004+08:00

"i've never found the significance of the song BALEK KAMPONG, until today."

yes, if you get what i mentioned above, i'm back in clean and green singapore babeh, for hari raya:):)

it was a suprise for all my family members, i must say.. haha.
seriously, they thought i wasn't coming back (since my passport was in KL applying for visa) but i did. yay me.

geylang was so packed, that i can hardly breathe. i was scared that my sister would give birth there and then. SHE SURVIVED the crowd.she is now 38weeks and 3 days preganant. big big buldging stomach. and i hope when that i'd get to see THE BOY since i'm still in singapore, before i get back to kedah.

on a lighter note, i've satisfied my cravings. dengdeng, ramly, tako balls, cheese hotdog and bbq chicken all in my stomach:)

and SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all.

dum-dooey-doo@ 2.30am

2009-09-14T21:09:00.010+08:00

"why do people say, 'i don't mean to offend you' right before they do it?"

daily routine for now(no life to be exact):
1) wake up!
2) shower
3) work work work
4) back to the house
5) shower and get ready for break fast
6) EAT
7) Computer time!

i hope things gets better after puase:):)

i'm sick of cup noddles. within a week, i've ate 3 cup noddles!! haha.
and so, me and yani decided to order pizza hut online the other day. hahaha. YES LIKE FINALLY, good food..

i miss everyone at home, especially Lutfi. everytime i think about him, it brings me lose to tears. same goes to when i'm talking to mum or dad on the phone. Ugly Crybaby. maybe it's due to the fact that i fear that i won't be back for raye:(

i want to play MERCUN. nak jugak nak jugak.

dum-dooey-doo@ 10.12pm

2009-09-09T20:38:00.005+08:00

"i have started to learn how to appreciate"

yes, i'm blogging from kedah, believe it or not. haha. there's actually no Internet connection to the house that i'm staying but there is an unsecured network that we are using now. hahha. all thanks to HACKMAN. the name is ironic, isn't it?! haha..

living condition wise, not as what i've expected. but i guess it's still okay for sleeping after a hard day of work.. still getting used to the place here. TAXI's are disastrous. limited sia. seriously. can you imagine, me and yani wondering on the streets that is getting darker from 7.00pm to around 7.40pm, just waiting to hail a cab?! at that point of time, the most thing i worry most is my safety. DUH. we are GIRLS and anything could happen. gawd! there are buses which stop over but looking at those people that is on the bus, mostly men's, we decided not to. SAFETY COMES FIRST oi.

work place however is fine. as what yani says, looks a little like kampong on the outside but condo on the inside. My supervisor is a caring gentleman whom shares alot about his knowledge:) most of the people at the workplace are nice too. i mean, not so sure how nice, but nice enough to give a smile when we meet them, some even chat and talk with us, while VICKY (not the real name; working at the same place but different department) even offered us his time if we needed to go anywhere for leisure/sight-seeing. but once again, no thank you. haha. and i really wish i was a GUY so that don't have to worry about what GIRLS worry. damn.. the workplace are full of USHER's and eventually, one caught my eye (yani knows). i'm joking by the way, NO WAY HOZAY, thank you very much but i'll pass. hahha.

so me and yan are planning to only explore after raya during the weekends. speaking of raya, i'm still not sure if we are able to go back to SINGAPORE(country that i was being raised for 19 years) cause our passport have been sent for VISA approval. i so wish we are able to go home. like seriously. and we also need our notes badly for the major project. now then i realised how much i've learned in school is really applicable in the pharmaceutical sectors. really come in handy, and how i wish i've memorised all the things i have learned instead of trying hard to recall stuffs like today(weight uniformity test- % deviation)!!!

i'm so excited for tomorrow cause at least we have got work to do, unlike our 1st day.. haha. time sure keeps ticking fast when you're busy.!

I NEED THE RAISIN BREAD + WARM ORANGE JUICE FOR ENERGY ESOK, OKAY (:

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.19pm

2009-09-06T22:48:00.003+08:00

"sometimes those whom i least expect are the ones whom made my day"

i can't believe i'm leaving for kedah tommorow.time zoooms past fast!! my eyes are all puffed up, all thanks to LUFTI audy. haha! like i've mentioned somewhere, i'm such a cry baby!!! i'm sure to miss everyone.. family and friends:)

and ouh, special thanks to ALL those whom drop me with little gifts. it was really thoughtful. thank you.
FIFI, OMG, thank you for your salmon.. i've been wanting to taste it, and yes, your baking skills is not bad at all!! squeezed lemon juice drizzled on the baked salmon was awesomely good, i have to say:)
fathinah was the best. she gave me a really really advanced birthday gift. hahah!! super advanced seh.. i like the capsules alot, adorable yaw..

it was nice to catch up with those good friends of mine just before i leave (ASSess lah, DUH!). haha.
for the other plans which has to be cancelled, its ookay. everyone is busy, so am i. i undersatnd perfectly:)

i should start praying really hard that there's internet connection over there! GAWD..

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.20pm

2009-08-30T22:20:00.006+08:00

"poison apple."

i'm already feeling so busy. It's like i got so many things i want to accomplish just before i go off.
thank god, i have break fast with one of my beloved nenek and i'll break fast with my other nenek soon enough:)

and ouh, i came down for training on friday. of course, i did it for shikin! it's heart-warming to see the cadets and realised how much i miss those days. but past is past. i've promised to end and i will. like i said, nothing/nobody gets to change my heart.

YES, pictures from the zoo.! you can see the love season of the animals for yourself. some is really, cute.(and i'm not talking about pictures with me in it alright.)

dum-dooey-doo@ 10.20pm

2009-08-27T23:35:00.002+08:00

"the best thing i ever had WAS you."

me feel like drinking something sweet. all i can think about is sneaking into the kitchen and grab one of the many cans of green tea that belong to my father. but then, i think i'll just make eno instead. not a bad idea. BINGO!!

earlier, my sister asked me if she can drink eno. but i said NO!
because eno contains lots of sodium which may lead to hypertension which pregnant mothers are already prone to!

all of a sudden, i have this jittery feeling inside me, just thinking about everything!! gawd.

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.41pm

2009-08-26T14:03:00.008+08:00

"me pit stop."

one more, one more!!
exams finally over. hurrah!
i won't be hanging arund TP anymore for the next five months. it's SIP time babeh.
i've must skipped the thought that MAJOR project was still to be done. It surely freaks me out. yikes.
just a few countable days and i'll be off, provided my visa is approved. sure am excited..

ouh, and i finally visited the place i wanted to go so badly.! me got to see those pretty butterflies. BEAUTIFUL.
anyhows, i think this month is the mating seasons for the animals and bugs. i've accidently disturbed a butterfly mating and also checked out how the orang hutans mate when i was at the zoo. feels like watching national geographic, so upclose, LIVE oi! haha.
and do you know that those common butterfly(black and white ones) that can be found in singapore are actually the most friendliest. you may get to touch and pick them up with your fingers, (GENTLY!) when they are stationary. and if you're wondering how a butterfly feels like, the wings are smooth and soft.. i sooo want to keep them as a pet, pet bug:) love, love.

PS: for those people who don't get what they want for SIP, don;t worry, i'm sure everything's gonna work out fine:)

dum-dooey-doo@ 2.41pm

2009-08-20T23:00:00.007+08:00

"GEMS IN THE SEA."

for the last two days i've been feeling soooooo sinful. i ate seoul garden, poppye's, ice kachang and chapati!! hahah. but when i think about it, it's never too wrong to dine with what i call GOOD FOOD(it's the cravings.) perhaps i'm just preparing myself for the fasting month.

and today, accompanied by really great friend from both studying sessions and lepak sessions. i'm really feeling happy that i can't wait for the fasting month. this year, i shall be good and behave myself. no more nonsense, cursing and swearing! i hope actions speaks louder than words. we shall see. i don't to be like those past years whereby when after sun down, the DEVIL gets UNLEASHED.

me going to meet my good old friends tomorrow. YES, me going to the ZOO!!

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.20pm

2009-08-18T20:44:00.004+08:00

"i know that it has become a norm, but i've learn how to live without it."

two papers down, one more to go! and after that, can forget about projects and ~~late night~~ early morning studying. as for today, i realised that people should start valuing something when its right there infront of them and so if its not, then better stop finding cause its too late. maybe you think that a second wouldn't mean much, but i means a whole lot of thing. and that's why people starts regretting only after saying. while others will only regret that they didn't spend time with that someone and the next thing you know, that person has rest in peace.. and of course the list continues.. and to that, i know that i should start apreciating instead of grumbling. even when my mother or father starts nagging, cause i may never know how long they'd live. in a blink of an eye, they could have leave me. may ALLAH bless them. AMIN.

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.05pm

2009-08-14T16:21:00.003+08:00

"GYNANDROMORPHISM!!"

first things first. of much egoness, i didn't even wish my sister a happy birthday. haha.so here it goes big sister, "HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY!". i must say that during the months that she's been pregnant(and still is), she has been the sweetest sister ever!! and ouh, those ginger beer moments has been GREAT! it's sad to say that i couldn't send her to the labour ward (which i desperately wish i could!!) and be the first few to touch his son. damn, wasted. ouh wells, no biggie. technology is so advanced, a 3G phonecall all the way to kedah would do just fine. THANKS:)

finally, i'm finishing sems 3.1 soon. well, lets just say that i've completed it and left with 3 tests to go. AWESOME. wallace has been the best lecturer EVER! (maybe sometimes, NOT!). he's always so funny. and like yesterday, we were going through cleaning validation, he was saying, "cleaning validation is to prove which method of cleaning is best and suitable for that particular machine. For instance, wanyu tried cleaning the tablet press using fire, kim leng decides to just throw the machine inside the water while diyanah decides to spray it all with alcohol." so just when i thought that diyana answer was BINGO, he carried on, "so after cleaning validation is done, the final results shows that wanyu will get a charred black tablet press, kim leng's method of throwing it into the water does not work either cause the tablet press drowns AND neither does diyana's method, as the tablet press will be DRUNK!!!". i was laughing like mad sia. what a JOKE.

looks like i'm done with school and left SIP to go. i hope it's gonna be great.!!

dum-dooey-doo@ 4.41pm

2009-08-09T21:54:00.009+08:00

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!! (the patriotic side)"

like i said, i wanted to make raspberry cheesecake but i could not find any in ntuc. so i tried with blueberries instead. it turned out perfectly fine, the blueberry dressing complements the cheesy cheeese cake:)yummeh. ok, enough on food. it just makes me hungry again! hahah.

so i asked my dad to accompany me to ICA to make a new passport yesterday. but when i readed the counter, i took a look at my passport, just to find, it wasn't my face glaring back at me. it was my sister's! stupid me. YES, i took the wrong passport. how dumb!! daddy was angry, DUH! but i gave the whole incident a big laugh.. and i managed to turn emotions around. i was like,"don't angry uh. it's funny okay. you should laugh. what to do, it's destined.". being the youngest is the best. i can soften his heart in an instant!! yay me.

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.54pm

2009-08-07T21:34:00.001+08:00

"RHETORICAL QUESTION."

i'm fucking sick and tired of compling! i've been sitting infront of the computer from 7am. YES i did!!
i'm feeling so giddy right now. why can't people give quality work even after some much promting!? (might as well i do everything for cause it the same as helping you to scrub your ass!) don't they know that it makes other people's life easier without having to re-edit their blardy effortless work which i think my grandmother can do better. i am really very angry. for the amount of work i've done, i better deserve some credit. as for whoever it may concern, i'm not going to be little miss kind anymore. FUCK it, ain't no pity no more. GRRR!!

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.37pm

2009-08-05T23:32:00.002+08:00

"the most important connection someone should have is with herself/himself."

i swear, i got nothing to write now. this shit always happens. in a minute or two, i've got all the thoughts and inspiration of what i want to rant or buzz about but when i start to sit and type, my mind goes haywire, everthing disappears. i ~~admire~~ envy those bloggers whom are able to write so beautifully. as you can see, my usage of the english language is poor.(gees, i know i should have read more books when i was a kid!).these people seems to relay the message of their emotions so easily. while for me, people don't usually get the clear picture of what i'm trying to say and everytime things would appear to be not what it seems to be. maybe because i'm unpredictable, that's why yeah. i think i need to read up on the dictionary or something! make it like a hobby. heh. but on second thought, maybe NOT! see, now, i'm really brain tied.
Oh yes, i've got no school till tuesday! kick ass.

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.49pm

2009-08-01T22:32:00.001+08:00

"a cheesy affair. its never too little."

AWESOME. the lasagne was rated 8/10 by daddy:) i want to try raspberry cheesecake, next!

dum-dooey-doo@ 5.59pm

2009-07-31T17:35:00.016+08:00

"a relationship should not be based on pity."

Like finally, a reunion with asses yesterday.! we spend most of the time crapping! no surprise i guess.

i am sure am to miss everyone of them when i'm off to kedah. OMG, time flies so fast. a month to go and i'm off.

i'll make sure that before i go off, i'd better do the things that i want do and catch up with those whom i need to. haha. chey, i like going away for 1 year gitu eh. padahal only 5 months. hahah! bottomline is, i'm sure to miss my family and friends.

i was having a conversation with my mum that i'm sure to miss lutfi. and she says that i have to be prepared that when i come back, lutfi may not recognize me(assuming that i look like a minah malaysia lah.!). how, how?? so scarred that he'll forget me:( damn. Ahah, maybe i'll go the extra mile to meet my brother online everyday to webcam so i can see lutfi and play stupid faces. BINGO, excellent idea. good job ili, well done. With that i don;t have to worry about, him forgetting me!. but looking forward to see me home. like people says, "LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP SUCKS." but i'm trying to prove that it's wrong. (out of context first place, i know.)

i was surfing the net and i saw this picture! back at ZIRCA; bonafide experience. i stole the picture. oops!

dum-dooey-doo@ 5.59pm

2009-07-27T23:33:00.009+08:00

"i'm am imperfect"

it was a pleasant suprise.he was cool. smokey hawt. there he stood with a ciggie on his hand, waiting for the right signal.

the girl stood there in disbelief. she thought the last time was the last but she was wrong. she said to herself,
"if it was meant to be, then it will be."

all that girl could think was about the first and every other moment of how they would meet. not a word, not a sound but just a connection of the eyes could send her electrifying. she knew that anything is possible but a possibility could also be anything even nothing!. before she knew it, she was awaken by imaginations. indeed a pleasant suprise.

<

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i love how he look into my eyes. YES, i love you dude.

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.33pm

2009-07-23T06:39:00.003+08:00

Sumpah aku rindu asses!!
see, how frantic i look whenever i'm with them(:
and i seriously miss my set of teeths before i accidentally chipped one off.
i'm not over it yet, i assume.
so pantats, we shall meet up soon aights?!
XOXO

and i was so touched today when jun yo says he misses me.! hahha.
true enough i miss him too! hahha.

~~STUPID BLOGSPOT!! something wrong. siow.~~

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.45pm

2009-07-18T10:25:00.000+08:00

"we are all as one, one is all we are"

why is it so easy for people to say words of comfort to others but when the same thing happens to you, you couldn't say it to yourself.! it's very depressing when you try make yourself feel happy but you just couldn't cause you know its denial. things that you say is just to make yourself happy.

and no, i'm not emoing. just randomly pouring my heart out. like i said, i'm such a cry baby even when the matter is ridiculous. especially when someone tries to rub it in. it hurts so much!!

i've been sick again!! feeling lethargic always.

it could be due to school. maybe it's true what afath say that i should eat more supplements. more vitamins pills. ok, i need to rest.

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.38pm

2009-07-16T07:17:00.003+08:00

"LIVES BASED ON LIES."

thank you abang for buying for me the wonderful king of fruit!

it's been 3 days since i'm craving for it.

and finally, got it. love it.

i've changed my whole mindset. now, i'm more postive about failures.

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.35pm

2009-07-09T22:00:00.003+08:00

"i try HARD to think of happy thoughts when i'm sad.

gotta try real hard!"

i realised, it's really not difficult to make new friends.

yes, first impression do count. it's simple to look friendly and approachable.

just smile. and don't think because you're a girl, you shouldn't smile to stranger which is a guy.

and no of course, you're not flirting(unless you think you are), it's just a gesture of being friendly.

there should be no hesitation of starting a simple conversation like "hey, i'm ili. you are?"

the key to widen your circle of friends is to smile and just be yourself:)

and now i'm refraining myself from thinking that i should be depressed!

dum-dooey-doo@ 10.16pm

2009-07-07T19:41:00.004+08:00

"we live for the future."

i hate to see how fairy tales are written so perfectly that it seems to portray

that everything in life is wonderful

and it will end with a

"..... happily ever after."

when in actual circumstances of life, it is never the way.

i feel at the age of 18, is the best time of your life.!

dum-dooey-doo@ 7.45pm

2009-07-04T10:46:00.012+08:00

"The truth is out. I hope it's not a show just to fit in."

it's been a hectic week, i must say.

i'm glad i met cousins yesterday, and they surely did make me happy!!

we ate SAPRINO's again.! hahha. apparently, since fifa is working OT and she couldn't get to leave with us, we decided to dine in at her place instead:) and yes of course, privilege is, DISCOUNTS! hahha. i don't have to pay a single cent. since i'm like the youngest of them all, and they knew how broke i am! faiz and 'an already got their GST money. da 21 per!! but still abg boboy paid the most.

on thursday, me and nurul watched mark bonafide experience - album launch at ZIRCA. since she had special invites and she gets to bring one friend along..

getting in is not as easy. since you've gotta be 18! and yes, they had to ask me for my IC 2 times, and keep making sure that face in the IC matches to mine.

two conclusions: it's either i look young, or my face now dosen't match with the 3 years ago.

MARK was hawt.! especially with those shades on. fuyooo..

he did sung new songs, but i stiil think the best was HEY GIRL and round & round!

the crowd was kindda boring and so was the music after the show.

but his performance was fantastic i must say..

so congrats mark! and ouh, it was his 1day belated birthday during the launch. so happy belated birthday mark. chey, i like macam his friend liddat! hahah.

PS: i hate 5!!

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.09am

2009-06-30T23:31:00.003+08:00

"every heartbeat should remind me of you. but i'm such a failure."

happy 19th birthday wanyu!

thanks for being there for me all the time:)

and i'm so glad that today i met SITI SHAHIMAH!! omg, miss her like crazzy sia. we catch up on each other while having dinner.a very nice moment spend.

ok, so back to serious stuff. i've done alot of thinking, and i finally made the decision to take my leave. i swear the passion is there, but i can't seem to do things that i want without the right support. true? YES!

in an instance, i knew that i should set aside the tension of higher authority and focus on the people i was there for. true enough, the main intention for my existence, is for them! so i persevered despite me giving up halfway. they were my pillars of strength! very much.

but after a while, it seem that the people i was there for was also disappointing. i always had HIGH spirit to give all my knowledge, but when you see the amount of people, it made me demoralised again and again. and yes, the "bundle-of-joy" seems to be a "a bag full or sorrows". bottomline, I GIVE UP. writing this makes me want to cry. i swear, i'm not faking it. i can't belive that i'm actually giving up something that i love. shit, i'm such a cry baby!

i must have disappoint some people, but can you imagine how much disappointment i have for myself. i never lost the passion, i've lost the drive to put across that passion. and without the support, FUCK IT, i can't pull through!

dum-dooey-doo@ 11.59pm

2009-06-27T21:16:00.004+08:00

"oh bla di bla da"

i'm making a wild guess.

either you're just to busy or you have forgotten.

KING OF POP. RIP. moonwalk, classic!
he's dance moves are all awesome shit yaw.

ps: i love lutfi although he annoys me to the max!

dum-dooey-doo@ 9.19pm